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3 days later after Ammis mum called that they have arrived safely. Can you imagine my luck? me and mai kaaton kai, i actually placed a call through to Ammi. i dont blame myself for going that far to call her despite all the chasani that she is doing, because a corner of my heart had a penchant for her. Its no news that i was fond of her, but the the most part of it was just curiosity.
I was curious about alot of things. curios about her reactions, curious about what awaits me, whether more insults and scolds and more threats trown my way, curious of the kind of insults i would receive that I have perhaps have never heard or reverence and loyalty like i have enjoyed from her while she was with us. I couldn't hope for the latter cause it was more likely for her to vent , I couldn’t but hope for the worst. The fact that I know she was most likely to go haywire. I prepared and took deep breaths. I braced myself, after several practices of the words i've carefully chosen to use, i scrolled down through my phonebook, to her name under "A" with a nervous smile i tapped on her name and punched the green button.
Took more deep breaths and listened to the usual MTN callertunez with a smug smile on my face. she didnt subscribe to any callertunez I thought she picked... and yet again words failed me.
She instantly started yelling her heard off. "3 days i have waited, for u to call, n
And now u think u can just call and say what u like and listen to my take on WHAT I THINK OF YOUR MUM'S EUPHORIC PROPOSAL? u r very much mistaken." on and on she droned. Spitting fire and brimstone. it relaxed me a bit with Time. i thought vividly of the kinda look I would see on her face as she was spitting this kind of fire...those big bright burning eyes. she suddenly became quite. She noticed I hadn't said anything since she started ranting. i didnt break the silence I waited too.
she finnaly said "i cant talk now its too dangerous for me. i might say what i would regret saying later" "good idea" i thought in my head and I i told her how very sorry i was for not calling. I lied actually about why I didnt call. but she believed it, mayb to make up for the horrible things she said. I just asked her to let me know the appropriate time to call. she said she will send me a txt in due time.
i was glad to get off the phone. i thought vividly, to myslf, i tthought I know where all these was heading. all my curiousity vanished instantly at the thought of her being my lifetime partner. How would I be able to deal with such sweet and beautiful temper she's got. I love debates and debating, but I never saw myself in this type of heated debate with Ammi.
Imagine having this sort of temper for a wife, a lifetime partner FOR Life! Chai! I am definitely not doing again I told myself. I didnt want to think it kwata kwata. How on earth am l ever going to get the balls to handle such a sweet temper? I should rather peacefully neutralize my feelings for Ammi and move on. Cause in my dictionary there's nothing like divorce. And I don't plan or intend to have a divorce story for admin to post on his divorce Diary group.
How on earth did I even get to this point? I never really signed up for any of this. Did my mum's stunt spur me into loving her? I thought perhaps it was those moments we shared together driving, skipping, riding, playing, gisting, running, watching etc I bet they spurred me into loving Ammi. It was what made all the difference in the world for me. But why wasn’t she gisting and behaving like before with me if she feels the same way?
I remember some years back when i went to Maiduguri and saw Ammi for the first time. I was fond of her instantly cause she was a cute kid. I have always loved kids so Ammi wasn't an exception. And she was a very wise kid at that. I recall vividly while we were playing in our family compound in Maiduguri and somebody hit me hard with a stone to my head. I chased after him. I was livid and wanted to kumbura mishi Kai too. He ran and shut himself up in a room. And I came to the door and was almost breaking it down. Everyone asked me to calm down and forgive him but sam. I had made up my mind. It's either I kumbura mishi Kai like he did or he gets a different kind of beating. The beating of his life. I was never going to back down or change my mind. Wallahi to me it's was a done deal. I must have my vengeance.
Out of nowhere somebody small was tugging at my trousers and saying something. It was little Ammi, She was pleading with me to forgive him. It was not because she pled with me that made me reconsidered. It was the words she carefully chose to use. Little as she was then she said "Ka saka hakuri" NOT the regular or usual ”kayi hakuri". I was taken aback. She kept tugging at my trousers and repeating the very same words "ka saka hakuri". Ofcause those words hit me. I smiled and started feeling embarrassed. If this small kid knows what it means to put patience before anything else... why not. Ever since I started calling her my wife Playfully ofcouse because she knew how to calm me down whenever I heat up. Playfully I will say what would want from a wife other than the one that will show him how to behave and help him relax whenever he is out of it. And she would run away and never come close to me.
I waited not too long for the txt message from Ammi telling me to call after Isha prayers. i scowled!!! Fast forwarding......after isha, i scowled more as I walked to the recharge card vendor. I scowled all the way home. I decided to dial her number just outside the house away from Aisha and Abdul my younger brother. she picked like she was waiting for it. I scowled some more. I thought I know what was gonna happen, no more surprises from her I thought in my head. She can complain all she want. I was already Subconsciously building my wall around her ranting. She instead apologized for the earlier call and said she just didnt like it that I kept her waiting and never to do that again. I was relieved. we spoke like two other friends will, I liked it, I loved it. I enjoyed it. It was what I had missed shortly before they left Abuja for Maiduguri. I was delighted and surprised at the same time as things felt more relaxed and back to normal. Back to square one. I should died before these words came out of my big mouth, It was reckless, it was tactless, just what I should be avoiding, but i didn't know what I was thinking, it was the most stupid thing to say. i thought I was just keeping the conversation flowing. it took her by suprise too, but too late I had said those "1 4 3" words. And she was happy I brought the issue up. I said "about what happened with mama, i thought u never were going to talk normally to me again. i thought u would hate me all your life for the embarrassment it caused u. but believe me mama surprised me too. i never knew she planned something like that. I hate the fact that she ambushed u. I am so sorry for everything." i was sure if she was with me, she would shut my mouth same way she did before. this time, thank God for the distance, she didnt get the chance at that but only said not to worry. she knew it was coming one way or the other. its was like something that must come sooner or later for her. She never thiught it would start this big, but to her, the more the merrier. (O BOY! Adonbelivit). she told me how stupid i was to think she wouldn’t like it. Told me how stupid I was not to read from her expression, and how tactless I was not to notice she wanted an outing while she was with us in Abuja. She said it was all she had ever wanted, right from time (my stomach did a somersault). she told me I was the second most handsome in my family next to Abdul, my immediate younger bro. (backflip in my stomach) that she fancied how I excelled in almost everything I did, and why she always agree with me in most arguments we had. (anoda backflip in my stomach).
Typically Aisha my elder sister will never believe these words. She has never seized the opportunity to tell me am the ugliest in the family. With my big matching nose to go with it. She at one time even said I was adopted and that is why my nose is so overlarded and different from everyone else's. And that i didnt even remotely look like mum or dad. It was painful and sometimes I look towards mama for support. But mama will only laugh along with them. But here I was leaning against baba's rickety car and hearing Ammi of all people throwing such compliments my way. I couldn't have had a better evening I thought. come to think of it, i thought this was supposed to be my lines. I should be the one saying this. i didnt think I loved her that bad but i know I still did. The meaning of all her support during our family football match came swiftly to me like a piercing dagger. My big brothers and sisters all participated in the match. so thats all what the support was for. Now that i come to think of it the match was really one sided and marred by bias cause she was the refree. I thought she was fair but now i saw everything. she had it all along in her mind. But why then all the anger and temper and the burning eyes if she fancied me too from the start???
To be continue insha Allah on Wednesday 13th July
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